Things do not change. I CHANGE!
Change. Its the thing that i need the most.
Work’s stagnant. That sucks.
Thats so many things that i wanna change in my life. I wanna change because things around me do not change.
May God grant me that Faith. Faith that will bring me to unfamiliar places.
As my life goes ticking and tocking away, i feel really tired from the immobility of my current life. It has been long since i encounter with change. I need changes to spice up my locked up life. I need more excitement.
Am doing fancy drill, tmd again, for the 5 uniform groups for the WWSS 10th anniversary. Seriously i feel like i am going for war with every training. If not for the thought that WWss is where i grew up and mature, i ain’t no gonna give a piece of shit. Felt shattered from the ppl. I dun think i shud be putting up with all the dumb shit that other UGs are giving me. I dun think i should be so taken for granted by the person in charge. I do felt that way, just that i am not showing. I really do not know which nerve inside me is wrong for me to keep taking my precious offs to go for WAR. Purpose’s drifting away. Thank God it’s ending next week. I need a change. No more fancy drills for me anymore. Never again.
I wanna so much to have a physical change. A break through i would say. I’d been burdened by it for so many years. Its not easy at all. I wanna try but i think it’ll not happen eventually. But i’ll try. Change!
Life’s bitching me now. Good night.
2010
2009 was real good to me and i thank God for it!
Thought i should just come and revive this dusty blog since i told myself that i should also set resolutions for my 2010. Blog is a good place for it isn’t it?
Was praying just now after a long thought about my life in 2009. There are so much that i wanna give thanks for. Maybe i should post about that in the next post. I told myself that i should also pray for a bible verse to guide my 2010 and God gave me an almost instant answer.
2 Corinthians 5:9 – So we make it our goal to please Him, whether we are at home in the body or away from it.
Saw this when i was doing my quiet time just now. For a moment i thought this is something simple that God wants from me since its so short and sweet. As i go into it deeper, i discovered more. God set me a challenge! It might be a short and sweet verse, but there are powerful meanings to it. Pleasing him in every way, everywhere and anytime, through our actions, speech, relationships and commitments.
Perhaps praying for a bible verse to guide my day to day living at this point of time (end of Jan) sounds a bit late but i thought God have it in a way for me to reflect how my first month of the year went and how should my following 11 months be like.
Think i shall continue tomolo.. getting late and i am tired…
Its not bad after all…
(pardon my very jialat engrish below! Too tired to think properly liao)
Yosh. BMT finsh liao. Cannot really believe that i am already in NS for half a year in 2 months time! haha!
Seriously, feelings of leaving BMT is like rojak. A bit of sad and abit of happy. I am happy because i am leaving that sickening island and no more of taking ferry to camp. I am happy because unit is “supposedly” to have more freedom, more slack and evrything nice. BMT iis too restricted and controlled. I am sad because i am leaving my current batch of bmt frens. I am sad because i am letting go of an environment that i am so used to and comfortable in and will have to make new frens and get used to new environment in the new unit. Ppl who knows me well will know that i sux at adapting to changes. Like how i only managed to clique well with my new poly frens like aftre 2-3 months? They can vouch how “dao” i was during the first few weeks. 
I seriously think i will miss all the things that we did in bmt. Like showering 6 times a day cause we will always shower after every trainign.. Sleeping on floor on each others tummy (abit gay but who cares when u are in tekong^^) because we were not allowed to sleep on our bed. Going crazy and shouting llike morons in the bus when booking out. Laughing at what some of my funny frens are doing.. like disturbing/bullying other frens. Acting like gays. (ok maybe not too much of this..) Watch other ppl play wrestlng. Laughing out very loud while watching Lawrence kana bully by sooooo many ppl. Thinking about so many things in my life cause there is really nothing for me to do.
I think i will also miss all my SGTs except for my PC (cause hes basically a d*ckhead). I think i am really blessed to have wonderful sgts. Basically all my sgts are good. PS is really a fatherly figure although he is so much younger then all of us. My sect comm is soooooooooooooo welfare and nice and talk jus like one of us. The otehr 3 sect comms are damn good as well. The sgts at other platoons are… ok forget about them.
My section mates are goood as well.
Will rmb how Luke always lame with me, sing many worship songs with me aloud in the bunk as if the rest are all christian, guide and encourage me to press on in BB and about the bible study group that i am plannning to set up.
Sherard is one of my closest fren in my bunk. Always so lame and like to disturb me. He got a GF who is like 6 yrs older then him! Walou.. I think all i can accept is at most 3 yrs older then me.
Nicholas who is another one of my closest fren. Always encourage me to do “bad” thing. HAH! Thinks like finding a secluded place to slack etc etc
CheeWei, without him the bunk will be less lively and 1 less person to “gossip” with me about other “paikias”.
And of course! My bangala buddy Yusoff! And he is 23 yrs old! I always make fun of him by saying that he is getting rich because he is getting him CPF money soon! hah! I think i will seriously miss all his funny acts like disturbing Lawrence and others! haha he’s the best buddy!
Well, i got my new posting at this super-ulu-never-hear-before camp call rifle range camp 2 somewhere in bukit timah. Its sad because so far i think i am the only one going there. Most of the rest are going to sembawang camp, nee soon camp etc.
I am seriously praying hard that my vocation is a 8-5 unit. Lots of rumours is saying that my unit is 8-5 or is those that u work for 3days then rest 2 days kind… My vocation in layman term is Ammo storeman la.. haha! Basically is to deal with all the weapons and bullets.
Aiya whatever it is, i am sure God has His plans for me. God had really been very very good to me so far in my army life. I am sure he will continue to be!^^
Pray that God will bless me again with very good bosses and friends like those in my bmt days. Oh, hope the food there is good too! heheh!
Indeed.
Often, in my present life, i found myself trapped in the situations brought up by the video. Where’s the coffee?
JJ, Live simply, speak kindly, care deeply, love… generously.
Cheers
No more 7 UPs and 8 DOWNs
Jus found out that my previous post was the day before i enlisted. Long indeed.
I am now going finish my BMT in another 5 more weeks! Some might say its sill long, but i hope it will not come so soon. I am getting too used to the environment i am having now. Great friends, great SGTs and OC (officers not included) and great everything. I hate changes.
God had really blessed me for the past 10 weeks in army. My bunk is at the second floor (platoon 4 is on the 5th floor), my sgts are real reasonable and friendly (others are just morons) and i had the best OC and CSM in the whole BMT (thats what other ppl claimed). God had been blessing me with strength and perseverance to go through all the events like field camp etc. In the course of the past 10 weeks, i had seen friends getting fractured,suffering from heat stroke and other heat injuries and i am really glad that i got none of those. God also gave me a lot of opportunity. I got to represent the company in the dunnoe what rifle presentation thing, and i got alot of opportunity to be this IC and that (not what i want actually). All these were during the first few weeks of BMT. I am now a very low profile slacker. I already chose to opt out of going to command schools. I see no point actually. I jus want to go through my 2 years peacefully. I do not want to see myself chiong Sua-ing or going through what i deemed as unnecessary trainings (of course u can disagree with me XD). Trainings now are pretty ok for me as all the high key events like field camp( almost killed me), sit test, live range and live grenade throwing are over. What’s left are just physical trainings for IPPT and SOC which i dun forsee myself passing any of them in any near future.
On the other hand, i am also looking forward for my POP. My section is planning for a Taiwan trip during the 1 1/2 weeks break. Will be looking very forward to that! Hope that the trip will proceed as planned. Oh, i think i shud start my prayer for a slack unit after my BMT. Actually i really do not have any unit in mind. Hopefully not those combat unit. Obviously i dun look any combat fit at all. Medic? I think i will really freak out during the self-injection trainings. Driver? A bit of bumps and i am straight into DB. I dun think i am qualify for clerk. Whatever it is, no guards ( i dun think i wanna see myself descending from the helicopter or building with jus a piece of rope), no infantry (enough of those dumb field camps) and thats for sure!
SO much for army things. Had a 1 hour talk with my parents earlier on. They agreed to support my overseas education! Oh man! If everything goes well, i will be in Australia 2 years from now. Having said that, they only agree to support my study fees. I think i still got to source for my own living expenses. I got 2 years to do that. I think i will get more tuition once i settled down with my new unit and all the trainings. Tuition anyone? Upper sec physics and chemistry preferred.^^ Lower sec Mathematics also can XD
Ok, i shall now go do my uni research.. Got to book in tomolo 10am. Sick. My 3 days holidays past like bullet!
Oh, happy national day!
That's me and my new hairstyle! Chio right!
上上上上上上上 下下下下下下下下!!!!
ok i am feeling 上上上上上上上 下下下下下下下下 now… I am not sure what is infront of me. Freaking wasting of my precious 2 years but i am really praying hard to God for good companion.. that is really what i am praying for for now.
Yup its finally my turn to go NS liao.. TOMOLO somemore! Ironically most of my fren are already ORD-ed like for so long…. I can no need to see those “surprised” eyes when i tell them that i’ve not gone thru NS!
I really dunnnoe what i shud be feeling now.. happy thet i am finally going in or scared that i am going NS!
Aiya freak it seriously man! Waste my 2 years! but i’m still going in… -.-
Alright i will promise myself that i will enjoy whatever shit thats inside..
Past 2 weeks were spent very thoroughly.. reall thoroughly i mean!
Lets see…
Last Friday was my last day in WWSS… I must really say that i am really blessed there! I enjoy every single bit of it except perhaps for the marking of my exam scripts! Walou eh mark 200 scripts by 2 days leh! Mark until 3am that time! Nontheless i enjoyed it. The classes that i took was ok as well^^ Not much nonscene from them.. nonscene that i got were from my sec 1 BB boys.. haiz.. Some of them really gone case man! Whatever it is, if possible, i would really want to go back there and teach again!
Colleagues there were good as well! Except for some ppl.. Students generally were good although also got some trying to be funny~
Sat was wow! Morning go back BB settle some stuff! Will not be going back to BB until i settle down with my NS things also.. That will be like dunnoe how many months or even years later. Afternoon went MindCafe with some of my 2C pupils and at night got cell group! Morning till late at night nothing was wasted! LOL!
Mindcafe with the students was pretty fun! The group is quite big thus we got quite limit number of games we could play.
Sundaylargi(dunnoe spell correctly or not!) best! Morning went church, Jurong christian church this time round. Walou eh kana fly aeroplane by that Arnold! Made JZ and i so awkward there! Tot i cOuld escappe COGS’s singing of Hymn every service but JCC sings alot of hymns lor! COGS only got 1 hymn per service sia.. JCC is only for the time being, i will still return to COGS eventually when i settle down in NS many many months llater!
In the afternoon went K Boxing with JZ and Sheradine and her cousin! Weird but i think was pretty fun! She can really sing well! AND TJZ DUN DARE TO SING!! Always sing so softly!
At night went Tampinese 1 to find IZ they all for dinnner! Far but i think worth it lar! Got to see my classmates for the last time before i enlist.. Scarly i die inside how?
Monday morning went ICA to settle some passport matters then in the evening went dinner and drinking with BB officers and primers! Walou was really fun man! The funniest part is that i do not need to pay any amount^^ captain’s the BEST! After dinner at MosBurger Went to this bar at boat Quay and i think i almost gonk out from all the beer. Got to taste some different beers. After that went singing again! Sing until 3am i think..
Tuesday was suppose to meet seconndary classmate and form teacher for lunch but i woke up late and to make things worst, i went to the wrong place! I did not go eventually cause they are in a rush to go home.. Walou eh i think i reallly fly their aeroplane when they are there to have farewell lunch with me! Oh man!
At the evening was back at wwss for parents meeting seminar! This time round i was aeroplaned by someone… Went there liao then tell me no need… So i went to help Suhana in the end to help her be translator. I think actually i wasn’t really needed la.. haha! Cause got Hector Heng there also…
Wed was a day at home. shud not neglect my family members, they are really impt! really appreciated dad’s effort to drive me to settle my passport thingin for the past dunnoe how many mornings when he got work at hand. Appreciated mum’s effort to hellp me bu some of the army things.. Oh man i am so regretting not to spend more time with my family members!
Alright today! Last day of civilian liffe until 2 years later! Was spent with my BB boys at sentosa. As usual! haha! JY planned it for me. Thanks alot dude!! Though not alot of ppl went but nvm de lar!
Ok, end of my last few days fo civillian life b4 army. God pls be with me thoughout my 2 years.. Bless me!
Pray for me frens^^
One last thing.. actually i am really worried for myself especially when a recruit died some weeks ago. I am lying if i say i’m not worried. I’m afraid i might conk out jus like him. He is only like 4 weeks into his tekong.. Weather is realy bad.. I am not in a very good shape to enter NS also… Haiz.. God bless me!
God bless that i can lose alot of weight and be skinnier or fitter then JY!! WAHAHAHA!!!
Someone thinks that having a pair of gigantic boobs will entitle her to snob..
What a day at school today… one of my worst day at school so far!
Worst thing is that it is not because of students!
That person should know that she is someone students will look up to, she shud jolly well watch what crap is coming out of her mouth!
I’m glad that the students dun like her and they came “bao toh-ing” to me.
There shud at least be a minimal respect for fellow colleagues!
B*TCH!
Another sad thing happened first thing in the morning.. Its the first time i send someone to the discipline comm.. I’m disappointed yet angry at how he dunnow how to love himself.. The school almost send him to the police..
Its..
Tomorrow will be Class F’s last parade.
How time really flies.
Everyone got to move on to their next stage of life. I’d done mine. It’s their turn now.
I always had difficulties dealing with such stupid goodbye situation.
The last 1 i had problem was during Ms Kok’s last day. I think the whole school got emotional.
It’s pretty unbearable considering that class F is the only batch that i’m cloest with. I dun get very close to other batches.. I told someone that i am jus like their form teachers, jus that i am their form teachers for 4 years! (I know someone would shack his head vigorously and disaggreement!) Nontheless jus take it that its my own thinking on my part. Might not be true. I mature as an BB officer with this class. I was their class Primer/officer when they jus came in as sec 1s. They are jus like my guinea pigs when i jus came in as primer. I learnt alot from them. When i came in as primer, full of vigor, i had lots of enthusiasm and ideas, and this batch is where i apllied them in.
I got into lots of trouble because of them also. From the class T shirt which aot of them turned their back on me to other boys saying i’m bias behind me. The t shirt saga was really a torturous time for me. Seriously speakingi would not say i am 100% not bias. Who wouldn’t want the best for their “kids”? (some of them always call themselves sons of mine.. -.-)
Initially when they came in, i got 28 sons. Along the way of the 4 years, alot of them “died”. I am left with 18 now. I’m still glad i got 18.
Saw them grew from irritating sec 1s to irritating sec 4s. Everyone grewtaller, had more pimples, some had girlfriends, some strayed aways with the bad companies. I’m glad 18 still remained faithful to 9th coy.
Alot of memorable events, good and bad ones. Shi hong’s broken elbow, fighting in church, all the fancy drill trainings, drill competition trainings.. The team building games that i planned for them, all the badgework then i taught to them. The planning of last year’s expedition was really a memorable one to me. The first time i plan for an expedition. Or shud i say the first time i plan for 2 expeditions at the same time. The trial and the actual one. All if not most of the class Fs are plannign it. I’m glad everything pull off well in the end. I still rmb somebody commented that i was bias as to award the planning team Swensen vouchers for their planning. Haiz~ I wasn’t the one who wanted this, i wasn’ the oe who initiated this. Anyway i dun really care.
Like i say in the beginning, everyone got to move on to their next phase of life. I really hope that all of them enjoyed these 4 years of BB life with no regrets! They are a great bunch of boys I’m blessed to have them for my first 4 years of BB officer life!
Their very innocent look when they are sec 1
When they are sec 4 and i am 4 years older. Innocent faces are gone!
All the best for your future endeavor kids! Rmb to jio me for dinner often!
At last!
I finally found the source of this irritating feeling that i had for the past dunnoe how long…
I felt like i’m taken for granted at every aspect of my life.
You know, that kind of “got problem then come find me, got good things and i’m not part of it” kinda feeling.
It sux.
Nonetheless, everything shud be coming to an end, or at least a long pause.
My Tuesday night course is effing unbearble. Unbearable due to my tiredness and unbearable due to me being not interested at ALL. I am having a jolly good mind to pay back the 100 bucks and stop going.
School had been good this week. I manage to enjoy most of my classes and came out of the classes after each lessonn smiling. Especally 2B and 2C although they give me more behavioural problems.
Wah! School’s life so exciting -.-
Been working for the past few days. Boring~
I feel as if i am a cheap labour. I should command a higher pay for what i am doing now. And there’s no staff welfare. How i regretted coming back to my secondary school. Dun be shock, but my “staff” room dun have air con and no internet connection. Oh, or is it store room? Lousy~ BOO!
There was once where i took 3 classes together -.- 3 classes having test together and i got to invigilate 3 classes together. not that alll 3 at sitted inside a room, separate classsrooms!! Imagine i got to go up and down the corridoor.. Dumb~
Yesterday i kana arrowed to follow 2 female discipline com to go outside of school to “catch” 2 girls sniffing glue.. They say I’m a BB officer so i am suitable. Since when did i become a GB officer? And all my boys are not as bad as to glue sniff -.- Ok~ at least for now.. Main thing is, why am i doing the job of discipline comm? Pay me more man!
Anyway, i was suppose to take a 3NA class for chemistry with another teacher. So the plan was to separate those very notorious ones to another class. I am the 1 taking those few. They are really that bad, easily the top few most CMI students in school. Imagine all those lousy ones in my class. Althoughonly got 7, its bad enough. Today’s lesson, 1 of the boy(A) wrote something to boy(B) and B actually got pissed off and walk out of the class. On the way out, he ounched the glass window plane and it shattered. WAH SO EXCITING! In the bio lab somemore (I’m holding the lesson in Bio lab). In the end i got to get the discipline com and the OM up… Need to get the cleaner aunties to come help clean up the place.. Total sick child man! I am thinking of changin venue soon. I will not want to wait until some idiot break the fish tank, breakk the glass cupboard then start to worry. Maybe i will hold the lesson outside office and get the principal to look at them study! Ok maybe not… least i teach the wrong thing…
Today the school’s counselor came to talk to me about 1 of my BB boy. SShe asked me to talk to him and see what i can do to tame him.. he’s only sec 1 so shud not be a problem. During this 3 months in school, he kana 7 records and 2 stroke of can already. More coming up. Today he slammed the stupid cooking wok on the floor during the HE lesson. The counselor approached me claiming i can tame him-.- All these are not the main point. The main thing is that i am becoming a counselor of the school already? -.- The school shud pay me more man!
sick child… Children i mean!!!!!
PAY ME MORE!!!! WAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!!!
Another thing i notice… alot of teachers talk to themselves! Sick! I hope i am not!
