Things do not change. I CHANGE!
Change. Its the thing that i need the most.
Work’s stagnant. That sucks.
Thats so many things that i wanna change in my life. I wanna change because things around me do not change.
May God grant me that Faith. Faith that will bring me to unfamiliar places.
As my life goes ticking and tocking away, i feel really tired from the immobility of my current life. It has been long since i encounter with change. I need changes to spice up my locked up life. I need more excitement.
Am doing fancy drill, tmd again, for the 5 uniform groups for the WWSS 10th anniversary. Seriously i feel like i am going for war with every training. If not for the thought that WWss is where i grew up and mature, i ain’t no gonna give a piece of shit. Felt shattered from the ppl. I dun think i shud be putting up with all the dumb shit that other UGs are giving me. I dun think i should be so taken for granted by the person in charge. I do felt that way, just that i am not showing. I really do not know which nerve inside me is wrong for me to keep taking my precious offs to go for WAR. Purpose’s drifting away. Thank God it’s ending next week. I need a change. No more fancy drills for me anymore. Never again.
I wanna so much to have a physical change. A break through i would say. I’d been burdened by it for so many years. Its not easy at all. I wanna try but i think it’ll not happen eventually. But i’ll try. Change!
Life’s bitching me now. Good night.
